History

Why do people feel the need to find those whom they shared a brief acquaintance with and remind them of the horrors that where inflicted upon them? We weren't friends then, and we sure as hell won't be friends now if you are just going to remind me of the horrors I dealt with alone in high school.

I've worked hard to move on and forget all the stupid shit people did as kids. I don't want anyone's apologies for being dicks to me back in school; especially seeings how its just a hallow 'sorry' to make you feel better about yourself. If you want to make up for what you did, then instead of hunting down the people you terrorized in school why don't you donate to a charity in their name.

There are ten thousand things you could do for every wrong deed you've done, find one that doesn't fucking involve me. I still have shit to deal with and I still don't want to deal with yours.

Asexuality

For quiet some time I've been trying to come to terms with my sexuality. Since shortly after puberty I've been a bit different then the other girls my age. I was never really interested in guys, nor was I even interested in girls. I dated, albeit scarcely and only because that was what was expected of me. Truth be told I've never felt right being so close to people. Anytime I get close to a person even if it's just to hug them I begin to feel physically ill. And not just 'butterflies in the stomach' ill, but full on 'let me go else I'll puke or pass out' ill.

Attitudes

While I know I have issues with authority, especially towards males, I'm pretty sure I have it under control. So when someone suddenly has a massive change in emotional state and for once it isn't me I think it's safe to say I'm not the one with the 'tude.

Starting about a week or two ago my step father started into his aggressive phase. This isn't the first time he's become aggressive towards me. Spanning back almost 10 years if not more, he has suffered mood swings with me as the target.

I've once again started in on my 'lock myself in my room phase'. Here I though I might have a chance at actually having a life.